Big, small week!

writing and writing and writing

Hi!

I’m honestly struggling to think of what to talk about this week, because it was a small week - Adam and I spent some time cleaning and organizing and cooking and had friends over for dinner and other friends over for another dinner and to watch the Bears game (not a small week for them!!!!) and I went to yoga with a friend and Adam and I went to the movies a few times because we have the AMC A-list membership and realized we didn’t use it as much as we thought we did last year (enough to make it worth paying for, but not enough to feel like we really took advantage of the situation!). We saw Ella McCay, which we both thought was one of the worst movies we’ve ever seen. And we saw Is This Thing On, which we both thought was really great! You win some, you lose some. And that’s really it for the week! Which is the whole point of what I’m doing here - talking about the little things and how they’re beautiful too. And they are! And as I’m writing this I’m realizing we also went to the art museum and got ice cream and spent Sunday morning planning out our week (which is huge for us because we always say we’ll do that and then never do that because we’d rather do something more fun, but we’ve found a way to make this fun - big success!). And I went to more yoga classes and stopped by the library to pick up a book for a book club I’m in and ended up grabbing more books (also a huge success for me to use the library instead of spending another $45 on books!) and it was pretty warm and very sunny outside for most of the week and Adam and I went for a lot of walks by the river. So it’s not like it was actually a small week! A lot of good things happened! I finished reading a book and started reading another one. We met our friends’ new, teeny tiny puppy! I squeezed in a lot of writing, even with all the movies and the classes and the friends. I’m slowly starting to remember that I did write a whole novel and it still exists and, soon, I’ll send it out into the world (it feels like it’s forever “soon” and never “now,” but I also decided it’s okay that I found some imperfections that slipped through in the chaos of trying to finish a novel while also wedding planning and want to fix them!) But still - I wanted to sit down and right something that had a little more meaning to it than just yapping, but here we are again. And I think that’s okay. I wrote a poem draft on a sheet of paper while Adam and I were planning our week out (I love to say, “hold on,” and then zone out for four to seven minutes and write something and then resurface like, “okay, what did I miss?”) and I handed it to him and said, “this is for you,” and he said, “really?” and I said, “aren’t they all?” Anyway, I guess it’s about planning our week, in some ways. I didn’t reread it after handing it to him, and he said that should be a new part of the poem for this week - to let it be a true first draft without any editing. So, here it is in its raw, bad-handwriting, rushed ideas form! A draft: